Lost and Not Lost

Have u ever been in a situation where u r the only one facing a particular challenge all by urself and ur condition is one of a kind with no one else sharing the same problems as u do. For instance, u r the oni girl/guy joining a particular event or wateva. Something like that but in a bigger and more complicated scale. The kind of feeling that says:" shit, i m the oni one like this. No one else is like me. " U know what i mean? It's like the rest have the same kinda condition/status which allow them to relate to one another or allow them to support n understand one another, wheareas u hav no one else in the same shoes who can understand u or strive with u.

It can be kinda scary. But yet it is not un-manageable. Ya i have been in such situation before a few times. And as time goes by, things get better bcos it has to. Well now, i m facing a same situation too. It's pretty scary when u r doing something on ur own. I mean not like oni u per se. But the rest r just not like u, they may be better, younger, having a different status or wateva. Anyways, ya.. i think it;s kinda scary facing challenges alone, knowing that oni u urself can make things work for urself bcos no one else know wat to do. It could be so much better with a company to understand u and to strive with u. But when u dont have one, who else can u depend on but urself?

Besides feeling lonely, another scary part of facing a challenge would be that u never wat will happen at the end of a journey. U never know if u will succeed or u will fail. U never know if ur effort is worth it. At least u wont know it now at the beginning of the journey. In every challenge, i m sure it';s gonna be difficult. If not it wont even be a challenge. I know oni me myself can give me what i want. But the thing is, i dont know if i can handle till the end. I dont know if i m making the wrong choice to go for it. I dont know if i m jeopardizing other stuff in my life. All in all, i just do not know if i m making the right choice. Every UNSUPPORTIVE "fren" that i have have not been showing me light at all. Some may even say mean things out of jealousy. Some may think i m just being dumb to pursue something that they dont see a point pursuing. Yes, i m very disappointed at these people. I mean frens dont do these things. Frens may not be able to accompany u throughout ur strive bcos they may have diff dream, maybe they cant be there for u. But frens DO NOT spoil ur interest of pursuing something. They can give rational/neutral advice but they shouldnt say..."what's ur point of doing this?" Hello? whats the point? Bcos thats what i wan to achieve in life and thats what i enjoy!. As simple as that. It really hurts when ur close ones dont even try to understand ur dream. They can dont encourage it or they can dont follow the same dream but they definitely cannot DENY ur dream, they cannot tell u that ur dream is useless and pointless.

I know challenges can be very difficult. Difficult to handle and difficult to succeed. But i definitely believe that i should give it a try if i really want it. I will strive for as long as i can handle. I will not give up that easily. Firstly bcos i want to challenge myself. Afterall life is full of challenges. If i cant handle these kinda small stuff now, how m i gonna ever succeed in life? And also, i want to achieve what i wish for. I want to try to reach the dream. At least i try and i wont spend the rest of my life wondering "what if i have tried last time?" And not forgetting, i wanna prove to those who dont think i can make it that my effort is worth it. Bcos i m sure i m gaining more life experience and lesson than them and i definitely get to be a stronger me.

So yes, people. Go for ur dream. Do not give up. And ignore those who "deny" ur passion. U r who u r, u go for what u want, u gain what u get and u make ur life!