soul-searching..... and updates on vivaldi + Mooba Fest

After posting my view on knowing yourself on monday.. guess what? On tuesday during my first marketing lecture, the lecturer asked us to desribe what/who we think we are. And he just randomly picked some people in the class to tell the rest on how they wish others see themselves as. I was thinking.. OMG!.. is this really happening? i was just thinking about this yesterday.. what a coincidence. And yes after that ... i was one of the chosen ones. So i said that i wish to reach up to others expectation but at the same time, i dont need them to perceive me in their own ways, i just want to me and be who i am. Once i mentioned that, he exclaimed loudly to the class:"yes..precisely...great.. carmen.. Be who u r .. just do your best. You cant be perfect.. doing ur best is the best u can do!" At that particular moment, i was ..like.."hmm..yes i agree with u..and i am glad that i did my own soul-searching and understood myself.. but oh..does it mean that i have the mentality of a 65 year old man??" ...lol...

So anyways.... i just thought it was so coincidental to have the question coming back to me the next day in class. That proves that day-dreaming helps u prepare for class as well..:P


Alright, moving on. A few weeks back I went to Vivaldi The Four Seasons- Four concertos for violins and orchestra at St. Paul’s Cathedral. We got student tix and it was awesome. They were really good! My photos will show you how nice the cathedral is as well. And next day, went to the Brighton Beach with the Msian Caulfield Peeps. Played games, met people, enjoyed the breeze, sun and beach. Oh went with Lai Ee, Priscilla as well. My good gf back in spore during MGS times. I hadn’t seen her for about 5 years and when I came here, I just realized that she is in Monash as well. So fated!.. am really glad to meet her again and still feel like the back old days.

Sam Mun (Sammy), gf from SAM taylors came to Melb for two days as well. Along with other frens, we went to Moomba water festival along yarra river. Sam n I tried the Extreme ride at the fest.. Before we tried when we were looking at the ride, it seemed ultimately daunting. Trust me.. I was feeling scared watching it. My heart was beating so fast just by looking at it. The Sammi was so enthu about it. And ya I thought it was really worth trying. So yes we shrugged our shoulder, plucked up our courage and went for it. Basically, u get swing 360 along the main axis and on the end of the column where u seat, they swing the seats along the axis holding on to the main column. So yes.. it felt like u were getting thrown all the way up to the sky n beyond. It was hell scary. I couldn’t even see half of the things up there. I opened my eyes for like 5 secs a few times and just kept yelling like mad. Eventhough I did it once, if u ask me to play that again, I would think twice just as I did the first time. But of cos, I think I would go AGAIN!.. it was totally worth the experience. I loved it!.. So did Sammi.

Another fascinating thing about Moomba was the fireworks as well. My first fireworks show in Melb. We were just standing next to the river, right beside the firecrackers. I loved the presentation, the choreography and the set-up of the show. It was really beautiful. Cant wait for the next show!!1…

Alright, photos time!..

Nat n Me b4 Vivaldi

all ready for Vivaldi

the cathedral

David, Nat, Me

Cathedral 2

Cathedral 3

A blur pic of them

Us in front of the Cathedral at night. That's Flinders Street Station at the back.

At Moomba Fest

Moomba

Nat n me

City at night

Moomba at night

Brighton Beach

Me, Priscilla, Elaine Liz

The group

Long-lost frens

Sea jelly graveyard

it was painful walking on those

Me n Pris

Pris, david, Me

One of the beach houses

Beach houses

clear water

so colorful

another poor jelly

how romantic

Sammy, Me, Elaine, Pris..the sinking library

Sammi and i

The Extreme Ride..

Way up high

Another round

Finally.. it was over

Sammi and i at Moomba

David, Pris, Elaine

VOOM!!!

Beautiful

awesome

woah..

lovin it

Knowing Yourself

Everyone goes through a phase of finding self-identity, knowing themselves, getting to know who they really are, and be proud of themselves. I can't exactly remember how young i was when i actually started to explore who I really am. Do u remember? Was it when you were 13? or younger? I don't know. But ironically, I think not everyone knows exactly who they are. Till now, I may still wonder for the exact words i would use to desribe myself.

Well, but undoubtedly, I think i know to a certain extent, who i am, what i want and what i do not want. I think this is a growing up process in which you compare yourself with the rest, ponder about things and come to your own conclusion. I m not saying that i only realise who i am now. But the notion i always had about myself just reinforces itself as time goes by. Sometimes bit and pieces of the picture do change but some of them just get emphazied again and again. And interestingly, u get to know more about urself that u din know in the past. At least that's what i realise.

By realising who i am, what i am..sometimes i do find myself asking questions like why cant i just be like somebody else, y cant i do what they do or y dont i want what they want? But at the end of the day, i know i wont change myself bcos of those thoughts. I may pick up some points that i think it's worth pondering about or even learning from that. On contrary, i think i would certainly not be able to comprehend some of the things people do that are never part of my life or part of what i would ever imagined doing.


Recently i have also learnt that, one's personality is formed as early as when he is 7 year old. At the point of realising the fact, i did not believe it in total. But after observing and thinking about it for sometime, actually i think it may well be a very true fact. In tackling a certain situation, I would do certain action and never take the other option while others may react differently. There are some parts in me which i think i m not as good as compared to my frens. I did acknowledged those good points and tried to incorporate them into my life. But somehow, something in me, some part of me, some nature in me just wouldnt allow me to change most essence of my personality. And to that extent, i agree that my personality was formed as early as i was 7 year old.

And for who u really r? if someone asks u that question, can u answer it in a very definite answer? I dont mean who u r as in what job u r doing, wat ur career prospect is etc, but who u r personally. I know who i am at this point in time, i know who i was in the past, i may not know who exactly i would be or rather wat part of me would change as i walk down the way. But i think i m quite sure of some or rather most part of myself.

I have no idea why all this occur to me. But i really think that i m glad to realise the importance of knowing who i am. I am Me. and i do not need to be someone else. I will learn from others but i would not want to transform into them. I want to be proud of myself and i do not need anyone else to doubt me for who i am.

GO! cw!... be CW!.. love CW!!.. live ur life to the fullest as the one and only KCW!...

ya.. guys.. good luck in finding urself as well. i m sure most of u did and r doing still. Be proud of urself! i love u for who u r!..

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My Results of of test on "knowing yourself" test

you are highly knowledgeable about your own self.

During this test you answered questions which measured how well you know your own self. Based on your scores, we could conclude that you have more than a fair share of knowledge about your own self.

You know yourself pretty well and are usually honest with yourself. You are well aware of your strengths and weaknesses and feel no shame in admitting (to yourself only, maybe) if you are wrong or have made a mistake. Introspection and self-discovery probably interest you a lot.

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The Great Ocean Road Trip

Third week of school alredi. Before school started, I was complaining to a number of my friends here that I can't wait for school to start so that I can get busy and also get it over and done with. But well, now that it is already the third week of school, i don't exactly regret saying that, but i just wish that time could slow down a little. Time just flies!.. the days past so fast. I can't even remember the first day of school now. Everthing just seemed to be in a fast forward motion.

And of cos, now i wish to have more time .. so that i can catch my breath while rushing for the piles of assignments i have. Every single unit has assignments. Every single week there is something new. Every day the stress level shoots up bit by bit. Ya i know.. most of you who r studying still r most probably feeling the same way. I am jus trying to find a more subtle way of abreacting.

Well ya.. it has been slightly more than a month since I came here. And been visiting and stuff. My new group of friends here went to the Great Ocean Road about a month ago. There were nine of us in two cars. We drove for about 3 hours to one of the beaches in Geelong. Took a short break there and then moved on to Apollo Bay for BBQ lunch. The weather was really windy and cold. So it was quite an experience BBQ-ing in that weather. and then another 4 hours drive to our ultimate destination at the Twelve Apostles, Port Campbell National Park. Once again, it was freezing cold there with slight drizzle. However the view was breathtaking. It was totally worth the time and effort. I loved it and i definitely recommend this place for any visitor to Melb.

Alrite, shall show u guys the photos now...

our first stop

we were shivering while some were surfing



me and natalia.. my pretty columbian classmate

The first group photo

on the way to the light house

That's the light house

ya.. trying..

great shot..Apollo Bay

Apollo Bay 2

BBQ-ing

Busy preparing

Still busy

Finally at our destination

view 1

view 2

me at with the apostles

the group

view 3

view 4

and at the end... we had pizza at an italian restaurant in Geelong.

So ya. that's about it. It was really fun experience. Can't wait for the next trip.

Before i end this post.. just wanna say.. i am missing everyone back home!.. my family, my frens from sch, vb, work, etc. Cant wait to go back. I am so tempted to go back in Easter.. lol. which is close to impossible. I shall stop grumping. Life here is good so far. I will just have to strive for all i am doing here to get everything into place.

So ya.. till then.. take care.. love and miss lots....